Everywhere in the world there is pain and sadness,cruelty and depression.
I had forgotten what it really means to be happy. I nevertheless felt the emptiness but wouldn't recognise happines for what it trully is.
I would pass it by.
Moreover I was so deeply in pain/anxiety , I began to beleive it's the only way to be.
I even invented ways to feel the pain( find reasons everywhere to feel miserable) because it had become such a familiar feeling.
The saddest part is that I had already been given the solution but I refused to accept it.
It's the joy Jesus in Orthodox church has come to offer to people. It's the endless joy that comes now that I'm trying to establish a true personal relation with God and lead a trully Orthodox Cristian life.
As soon as this relationship is established, all sorrows, worries and difficulties can be overcome and I know where to turn to and who to trust to bring back the joy.
When I surrender my life to the One our minds cannot fully grasp, then I find plenty of reasons to celebrate and feel the joy.
On another note I'm releasing my creativity by making bracelets
Crochet like a maniac
Use fabric to decorate our living room.