Every summer because of my job as a teacher, I have the chance to spend about 3 months as a -full time housewife.
I have found I quite like to spend time inside the house or in the small garden to tackle all unfinished jobs or have the luxury to spend a couple of hours every evening to crochet or be involved in other creative projects. And of course I am full time responsible for taking care of the family.
However, after a few weeks of doing that, restlessness settles in my heart that I don't do enough and that I miss on something out there, although I can't exactly point what.Something along the line that being a housewife doesn't make me an important person
or the option to stay at home means sacrifice personal growth and goals .
It has been for me a cultural fact to pursue a career, a fact I never challenged until this summer. I had been spending last summer and winter in managing my ego and I was for the first time in my life in the position to feel somehow more than nice in serving my family and in taking their needs seriously and sometimes before mine.
It was not anymore that I had my own agenda so if I had to cater for their needs it was not time wasted, taken from me and my projects.
It was like I was blessed with the most important role to be the silent connecting force in the family, the one to set the pace for all members to a decent, fulfilling, hard working, grateful and possibly religious life.
And I realised that this might mean one thing in my case. Maybe I need to find a way to stop my job and only take real humbling care of my house and hard working husband and the teenagers.
BITS AND PIECES
A newely found love for me is to create jewellery with beads. I have found some wonderful projects on u tube and I dived with some really good results .
Standing under the trees and taking photos with my mobile on my way back from the supermarket ( yes, I walk with all shopping in a carrier) has given great results, too.
I am listening a lot to religious radio programmes, all this wisdom on my fingertips and I read religious books. I had been so thirsty for wisdom and I really feel like I have found a fountain not just a glass . It sounds so common but it's true. I have also fallen in love with this blog which so much expresses how I feel this summer.
I wish all of you a great celebration of Assumption of Mary .